sometimes i think

sometimes i feel

most of the time i just wanna let it all go

as tears drip down my face i wonder
when will it be my  time
when can i be happy
and dont fucking anwer me
with o u have ur whole life
if ive learned anything so far its that life is short sieze the moment
and so far i havent had a moment to sieze

I tryied to be good ad that didnt werk i tried to do what i want and that didnt work i tried liking girls and asking them out that didnt work i tried asking girls out that liked me that didnt work so what am i to conclude theres nothing left and i dont care what have i got youve heard tis b4 but i dont care im seriously considering it as an alternative to livin on this plane of exsitence god hates me if he exists and i dont know what i did to piss him off this time i go to youth group i had faith fuck i thought by the time i was 18 i wouldve had my first kiss do u know how lame that sounds do u undesrstand where im coming from most of u dont i hate fucking living cause i have to deal with seeing people hug and kiss people that dont fucking deserve this i dont kno if i deserve it fuck it i do what do i do wrong i dont know what to do i dont know when to make a move and i never will if  never give me a chance if u see red marks on my wrists its not ur fault its mine i cant deal with this stress i cant deal with this world and i hate it i hate it all

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calm down dont freak out its hit you again ho much your life sucks dont let it get toyou sure u dont deserve to e loved sure u dont deserve anything and u just want to die but what can u do lets wait it out and see what happens.

Hush little baby dont say a word,
daddy's gunna buy u a mocking bird
and if that mocking bird dont sing
daddy's gunna buy u a diamond ring
and if that diamond ring dont shine
daddys gunna shoot off that head of mine
thought about it probably a thousand times
dont worry things are better this way
now u dont even have to stop and say hey

i constantly wonder why im hear
i believe it has something to do with fear
i watch all day long
wondering when ill be gone
im afraid to do it myself ive tried
im scared off all i want to die

U wouldnt care if i was gone
just because i dont belong
u take me for granted
what would u do if i wasnt there
Would u even care

i wanna write sumethin but i dont know what im afraid ive secrewed it all up

I dont deserve to exist.

As i gaze into the deep emptiness of space I see a star far brighter than the others one that if u stare at it for too long it will burn your retinas. BUt slowly i begin to realize that the star is the perfect shape. It fits perfectly into the hole in my soul. Someday that star will be with me it wont be in the sky.

Have u ever let go.

Driving down the road i put my cruise on to see how long could go before i gave i grabbed onit wasnt far i havent let go enough and i realize how much of a pussy i am.

There is no reason behind me.

Thats my reason for pain.

Basically life is a waste of a shitload of time.

My race is dead there are no hopelless romatics left theres noone to woo.

Some scars will nmever heal.

Although the ones on my arm might.

The ones in my heart shall forever remain.

I've always wanted to be in a band.
Ive always wanted to fall in love.
Ive dreamt of you.
Ive hurt myself.
Ive cried.
Nothing beautiful will ever be near me.